reject

I think if I cannot reject someone intellectually, I cannot reject someone directly at all. This limits my choices in life.

I only now think of this because of I thought of why I do not go out in Allentown, because I want to avoid one person I suspect may still hang-out in the area. This person is not malicious, quite the opposite. He just is not the type of person I wish to date. I do not have the heart to tell that person. I do not to hurt his feeling by spurning his advances. Yet, I have not been interested in him as any more than a passing acquaintance. I cannot relate to him.
I think of this also because of my encounters in online dating site, like Manhunt and Adam4Adam, but mostly on Guys4Men. On G4M, I often gets messages from south-east Asians, often young. Often, I find them unattractive. What is worse, they send me messages which sound desperate for  love or sex, something I find very unattractive. I am ashamed to admit I am not attracted to East Asians; one needs to be built like a rugby player/defensive lineman to be somewhat attractive. I often do not skinny guys attractive. ‘Height/Weight Proportional’, to me, means not underweight. [Though, it also means not more overweight than I.] Gushing, strong, desperate or forward sex or romantic talk or ‘compliments’ are a sure turn-off. Add your Yahoo/MSN/AOL/whatever before I ask for it, and I want no parts of you. Yet, I will not tell requesters that. I am already poor with responding to e-letters. If I find a request too forward, I definitely will not respond, even to reject.

I know I should let my intentions be know. I do not wish to seem like ‘the asshole’, who only talks to ‘his kind.’ I do not wish to hurt anyones feelings. At times, it gets me in situations in which I need to pull a ‘runner’ to escape the situation. I also do not wish to reject someone outright; I do not wish to be discriminatory, just in case that person is far better stock than first impressions suggest. Maybe, though, I should reject more often.

By the way, if you give me a work project I cannot do on your schedule, or may be a detriment to the company, or you try selling me something I do not want when I purchase something I do, or you ask for my advice about anything not involving emotions or politics, I will reject your ass if it is my wont. *snap* *snap*